Monday, December 21, 2009

Starting a blog

So this is my first post. I've tried this kind of thing before, but it was more of a travel blog and it didn't work so well. I'm trying to think about why I am doing this, and I'm going to put it down to my mood. I'm in one of those moods where I'm thoughtful in a different way than usual. Normally I have 2 main ways of thinking. The first is in an organisational way, so thinking about what I need to do and how to do it. The other way is day-dreaming, which really doesn't help anything and is a waste of time. So this weird thinking that I sometimes have is quite different. I get more philisophical and start thinking about things that I don't usually, yet are things that I really should think about. I also start thinking in a round-about way, and a lot of the time I hardly make sense to myself. So if this post is a little strange and incomprehesible to you, I'll put that down to my mood as well.

Interestingly enough, this isn't really how I wanted to spend my first post of my new blog, yet I don't really know how I want to! I feel like it needs to be important and profound, but nothing's really coming to mind. Seeing as though it's nearly the end of the year, I could write something about the year that was, but I think I'll save that for another post, which will actually leave me something to write about on here. Maybe this is just a preparatory post. One that makes me think about what I want to achieve with this blog and what kind of things I want to write about. Does one need to have a purpose and an aim when starting a blog? Does there need to be an intention? Maybe if I have one, there will be more insentive to write more often. But if I limit this blog for a specific intent, then there's a chance that I won't want to continually write about the same old thing over and over.

Having a think about what I've already written, a thought came to mind. The other day one of my friends said that they thought I was a 'closed book', which I thought was completely the opposite. I see myself as a very honest person who shares a lot of herself and her life with those around her. But maybe I do keep some things close. Maybe I do screen some of the things I say and how I say them. I'm not really sure. So I'm thinking. I want this blog to be honest. I want it to show people (whether I know them or not) what I'm thinking and why. I want people to try and understand where I'm coming from and the thoughts behind my thoughts and actions. So I guess that's an aim for this blog, but one that doesn't limit the topics and ideas. I guess we'll see how I go...